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Hormonal Rollercoaster

Mommy — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 18:10:37 +0000

So I was crying last night. I am not sure what happened, but all of a sudden I just felt really tired and really guilty (for being tired all the time) and I just started crying. I cried so much that Jason freaked out and called his mom for advice. His mom then called my mom and soon, my mom was calling me.

Aiya…

And I woke up this morning, fine as usual.

Gosh…when it is gonna end?

Mommy — Sat, 03 Jan 2009 07:54:15 +0000

My morning sickness should be called “bedtime sickness” as it seems I am most fine in the mornings, but come bedtime, I’m all over the toilet. It’s been the third night already…and just a little brush on the roof of my mouth with the back of my toothbrush is enough to trigger a Niagara-like waterfall.

It’s week 13 already! Gosh, when is all this puking gonna end? I just want everything to be back to how it was before – no puking, no constipated, no fatigue, no bloating, etc.

Checking out Prices

Mommy — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 18:03:26 +0000

Jason and I went to Babies R Us over the weekend to check out prices of baby stuff. We figured that right now, all we need is a crib, changing table, car seat, stroller and a baby rocker, in terms of furniture. It’s so surreal looking at all the baby stuff. We want to keep everything white, to go with the rest of our home. Jason was also looking for NHL crib bedding. Silly daddy.

Just a couple more days and the first trimester will be done. I can’t wait till my doctor’s appointment on the 13th. I can’t wait to see our baby on the ultrasound.

Snow

Mommy — Fri, 26 Dec 2008 19:17:53 +0000

It has never snowed so much in Vancouver…at least not that I remember. Jason said it could be a sign, that our baby will be a winter-sports loving kid when s/he grows up. Hmmm…I hope so.

We were watching the IIHF games preview special last night and seeing Pat Quinn on TV was just amazing. I love that guy. Too bad he’s already 65, I really do hope that someday, our kid will get the chance to work with him.

So, Week 12 has officially started. I am noticing the nausea/morning sickness has indeed went down a bit. I am still very tired most of the time, but I don’t feel sick anymore, which is very good. I am taking this and the next week off, so by the time I get back to work in January, I should be my old self again.

Which reminds me, I gotta start knitting soon. I found so many cute things I want to knit for our baby – blankets, sweaters, booties…Though I do want to find out if I should be knitting pink or baby blue, I think I’ll do mostly whites and pastel yellow, to go with the whole “snow” theme.

Are we ready?

Mommy — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 10:36:00 +0000

Sometimes I really wonder if we’re ready. I know no one is ever ready to be a parent, it just happens, but are we ready to be pregnant?

I mean, I had no idea how bad morning sickness was going to be. I’ve been losing sleep and missing work so far because of it. I feel bad for not showing up at work, there have been days where I’m physically there, but mentally, I’m…Then, there’s the emotional/hormonal roller-coaster (hence me blogging at 2:30am). Honestly, I am definitely not ready for all these.

Then, the whole thing about feeling “forced” to get married just so parents feel less “embarrassed” about the fact that we’re pregnant but unmarried. It’s like, they’re happy to see us arbitrarily pick some random date and then waste money on a useless dinner party where no one really gives a shit about it. All just to “get married before tummy’s showing” because waiting until then or after the kid is born is “embarrassing”. Maybe someone would understand that I don’t want to do jack shit in the first trimester. I am too sick and tired to do anything, and at this time, I think my happiness and well-being is more important than anything else. I am definitely not ready for all these whoop-las and stupid pressure.

Finally, speaking of fatigue, I am so sick and tired of feeling so tired all the time. I am at the point where I envy all those women on those pregnancy forums claiming they “spent 20+ hours a day” or “husband did everything: cooking, cleaning…” and I feel guilty for feeling so exhausted and wanting only to nap. I just want him to understand that the first three months’ like that and it’s not my fault. I do want to do things with him and nap less, but when it hits me, like today, after cleaning 1/2 the house, I need a nap. And like tonight, I felt so sick after seeing all the people and cars and lights downtown. Maybe he’s right, I should’ve just stayed home and let him go get his damn pizza himself. I don’t think he’s ready for a pregnant me, though he might be ready to be a dad.

I’m hungry again and I’m craving for a McChicken! Good thing there’s a few McD’s in Richmond that opens 24 hours! At least I know there’s going to be a burger and fries ready for me.

煲羅宋湯 (Borscht, the way Mom makes it)

Mommy — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 03:47:17 +0000

Mom was telling me the other day that whatever I eat in the first three months goes to my thighs and hips, what I eat in the next 6 months goes to the baby. I’ve been giving into cravings a lot lately, eating a lot of rice noodle, bread and chocolate, which is not good. So, after a long day of thinking, I’ve decided to stop all unhealthy eating habits and concentrate on eating more healthy. This morning, I woke up and went to the supermarket and got celery, carrots, tomatoes, cabbage, potatoes, onions, chicken broth and ox tail and I made a big pot of 羅宋湯.

That’s what Jason and I had for dinner…oh yah, we made Shake & Bake drumsticks and wings, too. I also made a batch of ginger cookies.

Showing? Probably just Bloated

Mommy — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 15:47:59 +0000

I am now in my 8th week and I shouldn’t be showing already…unless I am having twins, which I highly doubt. But my tummy is already sticking out a bit. Jason said “you’re showing already”. But I think it’s just gas. I do feel very bloated, and despite everything I did, it just won’t go down. I am already wearing my maternity pants.